Sunday, May 29, 2011
The things my brain thinks when I am asleep
Last night I had a dream that I was on Glee and that Darren Criss and I were dating in real life. Somehow or another it then changed that I was married to a geeky kid that wore glasses and was way smart that somewhat resembled Darren but his name was Steven. We were on our way to boot camp for some reason. In the middle of the introduction movie I look over to my husband, who is playing with my hand, and he is now a buff Polynesian dude also named Steven. And to top it Darren was jealous that I had married Steven and not him. I'm very confused as to what to think if any of this came true...
Friday, May 27, 2011
In the Begginging:
There have been many influential things in my life but the biggest has to be music.
My mom likes to say that I sang before I talked and I danced before I walked. I don't know how accurate this really is but I like to believe it. I have always been singing and dancing along with the TV and I even burst out into song without even thinking about it really. The first musical I remember truly loving from a very early age was Oklahoma! and it still holds a very special place in my heart. However although I did fall in love with songs such as "People Will Say We're in Love", it was the side story of Ado Annie and Will Parker. They are so funny and just, if played correctly, steal the show. There is something just magical there. This is where I got the thought of being an actress, and I was only 5 years old.
When I was in the 5th grade my life changed. Although I loved music and acting I never really thought about really pursuing it as a career, I wanted to be a teacher by then. One day in Beginning Music (because I didn't want to play in the band or Orchestra) we were playing recorders in front of the class. Mrs. Banta called me down to play. I was nervous and started to play. The sound was fluttering around because I was so nervous. She stopped me and asked me to sing. My mind went blank. Why did she want me to sing? So I sang the first song that came to mind: "Can You Feel The Love Tonight." When I finished she told me I had a natural Vibrato and that I should take choir my next two years of middle school. So I did! Mrs. Banta and I became fast friends (I dare say I was her favorite) over the next two years. She understood me and I her. In the 7th grade at out final concert, I was in the choir, a quartet, a trio, a duet, and I had a solo because of how fast I could learn music. I sang "Think of Me" from Phantom of the Opera. I had a mother of another student, who had shortly been on Broadway, came up to me and told me to continue with my singing and I could make it on Broadway myself. I was on cloud nine!!! Then some girls came up to me and teased me because they were jealous of my voice. They teased so bad to this day I will not sing "Think Of Me" again.
Moving into Jr High, I still had dreams of being on Broadway. I joined choir and immediately became fast friends with my teacher. He was somewhat of an outcast in our city because of his sexual orientation, but that didn't stop me from befriending him. I like to think that because of him, I am more open to people than I was in the past. He taught me not only music but acceptance. I wish the world would open up to those who are homosexual and just let them be who they are without harrassment.
Anyway back to the main story: I, in the 8th grade, had a solo in the Les Mis medley. I sang "I Dreamed A Dream" and had everyone crying. After that, for the next year and a half I was in Jr High I got no solos. I think this is because parents of children not as talented as I complained that I out shone their student. Anyway I didn't care much because I knew I could sing.
Then High School came. I auditioned for the choirs and made it into the lower of the three audition choirs, the female choir Musettes. I guess at this point in the story I should mention that I have a very hard time with sight reading music. To be honest I can't really read music at all. I am what my High School Choir teacher likes to call a "Parrot", I listen to it played a couple times and can, for the most part, repeat it back flawlessly. I sang a year in Musettes and then it was time to audition for Bel Cantos, the mixed choir, and Vocal Spectrum, the "Show Choir". I didn't make it into either, I stayed into Musettes.
I came to school the next day with my glasses on and my eyes big and puffy. The teacher walked up to me and told me that I was the last one he had cut from the choir, thinking that it would make me feel better. Well it didn't, it actually had the opposite affect on me. I cried harder when I got home.
I suffered another year in Musettes and again at the end of my Jr Year I auditioned for the higher choirs.
This time I made it into both Bel Cantos and Vocal Spectrum.
For the most part, my senior year was an alright year for my music, the two choirs and getting a leadish role in the musical, but it made me realize that I really wanted to be a teacher rather than an actress. I found out I didn't/don't have the patience to compete and kill for a role.
So here I sit, just after my freshman year of college, blogging about music. I LOVE music and musicals. I love to sing and act but mostly as a hobby (not that if offered a chance on Glee or any other acting/music job I wouldn't take it!). I love how music makes me feel and I will always love it no matter how bad it is to me.
My mom likes to say that I sang before I talked and I danced before I walked. I don't know how accurate this really is but I like to believe it. I have always been singing and dancing along with the TV and I even burst out into song without even thinking about it really. The first musical I remember truly loving from a very early age was Oklahoma! and it still holds a very special place in my heart. However although I did fall in love with songs such as "People Will Say We're in Love", it was the side story of Ado Annie and Will Parker. They are so funny and just, if played correctly, steal the show. There is something just magical there. This is where I got the thought of being an actress, and I was only 5 years old.
When I was in the 5th grade my life changed. Although I loved music and acting I never really thought about really pursuing it as a career, I wanted to be a teacher by then. One day in Beginning Music (because I didn't want to play in the band or Orchestra) we were playing recorders in front of the class. Mrs. Banta called me down to play. I was nervous and started to play. The sound was fluttering around because I was so nervous. She stopped me and asked me to sing. My mind went blank. Why did she want me to sing? So I sang the first song that came to mind: "Can You Feel The Love Tonight." When I finished she told me I had a natural Vibrato and that I should take choir my next two years of middle school. So I did! Mrs. Banta and I became fast friends (I dare say I was her favorite) over the next two years. She understood me and I her. In the 7th grade at out final concert, I was in the choir, a quartet, a trio, a duet, and I had a solo because of how fast I could learn music. I sang "Think of Me" from Phantom of the Opera. I had a mother of another student, who had shortly been on Broadway, came up to me and told me to continue with my singing and I could make it on Broadway myself. I was on cloud nine!!! Then some girls came up to me and teased me because they were jealous of my voice. They teased so bad to this day I will not sing "Think Of Me" again.
Moving into Jr High, I still had dreams of being on Broadway. I joined choir and immediately became fast friends with my teacher. He was somewhat of an outcast in our city because of his sexual orientation, but that didn't stop me from befriending him. I like to think that because of him, I am more open to people than I was in the past. He taught me not only music but acceptance. I wish the world would open up to those who are homosexual and just let them be who they are without harrassment.
Anyway back to the main story: I, in the 8th grade, had a solo in the Les Mis medley. I sang "I Dreamed A Dream" and had everyone crying. After that, for the next year and a half I was in Jr High I got no solos. I think this is because parents of children not as talented as I complained that I out shone their student. Anyway I didn't care much because I knew I could sing.
Then High School came. I auditioned for the choirs and made it into the lower of the three audition choirs, the female choir Musettes. I guess at this point in the story I should mention that I have a very hard time with sight reading music. To be honest I can't really read music at all. I am what my High School Choir teacher likes to call a "Parrot", I listen to it played a couple times and can, for the most part, repeat it back flawlessly. I sang a year in Musettes and then it was time to audition for Bel Cantos, the mixed choir, and Vocal Spectrum, the "Show Choir". I didn't make it into either, I stayed into Musettes.
I came to school the next day with my glasses on and my eyes big and puffy. The teacher walked up to me and told me that I was the last one he had cut from the choir, thinking that it would make me feel better. Well it didn't, it actually had the opposite affect on me. I cried harder when I got home.
I suffered another year in Musettes and again at the end of my Jr Year I auditioned for the higher choirs.
This time I made it into both Bel Cantos and Vocal Spectrum.
For the most part, my senior year was an alright year for my music, the two choirs and getting a leadish role in the musical, but it made me realize that I really wanted to be a teacher rather than an actress. I found out I didn't/don't have the patience to compete and kill for a role.
So here I sit, just after my freshman year of college, blogging about music. I LOVE music and musicals. I love to sing and act but mostly as a hobby (not that if offered a chance on Glee or any other acting/music job I wouldn't take it!). I love how music makes me feel and I will always love it no matter how bad it is to me.
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