I know it’s been a long time since I’ve blogged but, as the end of my fall semester of my sophomore years is coming to a close(that and I have to make and upload a video due tomorrow tonight) I feel that I just need to get the creative juices flowing and then genius will come to me.
This semester had been, well not hard but not easy. It started out great: moved in with amazing friends, and our friendship has just grown stronger. But my classes were harder than last year and required more time put into them and I finally saw that in high school I might have been smart enough to get away without doing a lot of stuff, but college was going to be different. Take for example this moment: I should be making and editing a video due tomorrow but I’m not. I just don’t know what to do it on. Also at the end of September, I got another surprise, and a panic attack to go with it. I won’t go into the situation because that would violate one of my best friend’s privacy but let’s just say that it has added stress into my life because I hate the fact that I see them hurting and know that whatever I say or do is not helping them. I just love them so much that I hurt that they hurt.
I guess the up sides of this semester are I turned 20 years old. That really wasn’t that exciting. It feels the same as 19 and yet it is weird to think that I have lived in three decades and have seen so many things happen. It almost makes me feel old. I also have amazing roommates! And I auditioned for a chance to be on The Glee Project and compete for a guess starring role on Glee. It is one of the scariest things I have done in my life, but it felt right. I don’t find out if I made it until Friday but still it was huge.
A lot of people I know got married or engaged this semester. Good for them but I just can’t see being married right now. Maybe they are more mature than I am, and that is a good possibility, but I just can’t see being in a serious relationship at this point in my life. Maybe it’s because I’ve never been in a relationship ever, maybe it’s because I still have a lot of learning and growing an exploring to do, maybe it’s for some reason that I don’t even know of but whatever it is I’m kind of glad it is there.
Maybe when I graduate college I’ll join the Peace Corps. I need to give back to the world, I just feel it.
Jerr
